Life is what you make it.

YOU. Not anyone else. We all think we're free yet all seem so unhappy with our current situations or have bad days and are just so generally unhappy.

Why?

You are your own solution to your problems. Why do you feel unhappy? Is it your weight, your looks? Something so superficial as the image you portray?

When did it not become okay to be happy? When you have a good day and are smiling people often ask why? Why can we not choose to be happy until something affects us that makes us unhappy?

I am someone who has always had serious issues with happiness. I want more in life, out of life. I feel like if I could just get that something, everything would be fine. But I don't even know what the something is that I am searching for.

One day I want to be an actress or a singer - then remember I'm pretty bad at both. Then maybe a journalist or something to do with the media sector. I want to live in Paris, New York, London anywhere but home; but don't want to be too far from my family. I start things I never finish. I fall for people I'll never get and shun the one's who show interest because they don't "have quite what I'm looking for", or "maybe there is something better". I'm angry cause I'm lonely but hide away from the people in my life who love me.

I am unhappy because I choose to be. I have ample means in my life for happiness but ignore them because I may not have the material things in life that society has taught us to yearn for.

This year I am choosing to be happy. To love the people in my life who deserve it. To make my life what I want it to be. To chase after the opportunities I have always sought, regardless of fear of failure. I'm not saying I won't have bad days - but I am saying I refuse to let them cloud over the good ones and keep me back from being happy.